My family is large. My grandma had eleven kids and each of her kids had about four of their own and a lot of those kids have another batch of children as well. You'd think over time my family would be distant, but we're not. I can honestly say that I know about ninety percent of my family on a personal level. We get together often and I love it. In fact, my very best friend is technically my cousin's daughter.
But when I'm called over to take birthday pictures with the little kids, I can't help but feel a bit degraded. I told my cousin this and she seemed surprised. She told me it made her feel "united". At first, this made me feel ashamed for feeling the way I did. But then I thought about it and realized my feelings are totally justifiable. For one thing, Demi is tall and would never be mistaken as a child amongst a crowd of them. I am short and was standing next to a ten-year-old who is inches away from being taller than me. I guess I have a bit of a short-woman syndrome. Another reason which I realized after reading something my cousin wrote. I am not part that generation. Demi's DAD is my cousin. There is no reason I would feel a sense of "unity" with those kids. It sounds silly but my "people" were on the other side of the camera.
Sorry. I had to get that off my chest. And Demi. Don't get me wrong. I love you and "your people" every bit as much as I love "my people". (Some of you, even a little more)
I have short girl syndrome too. I constantly take offense to seemingly benign comments about my height.
ReplyDeleteBecause, hey, you never know. There may be some quietly veiled insult hidden in there somewhere.
Haa :) I'm totally pickin' up what your puttin' down Kaitee.
ReplyDelete'quietly veiled'... haaaa
Basically, thank you both for the reassurance:) And I guess I don't really get offended but I think I have the tendency to feel insubstantial due to my height..
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